Sorry Everyone...... I've been too lazy to post for so many weeks. So i apologize if anyone been looking forward to my postings.



So expect a long post today.....



But, unfortunately the opening of this post does not carry a very good feeling ..for me at least.

Today, i am going to blog about this friend of mine and i need to let this out thus i opt for blogging it. Whatever you read later on is just my way to get this feeling of my chest, kay? Its not that i like talking about her... so going on with the topic....



I have this very very good friend of mine that been through quite a lot with me for the whole of my secondary school life. I cherish her very very much, we were very close and stick like glue throughout the school days. Even when i am at home, you will find me most likely to be on the phone with her. I really enjoyed the time spend with her and the memories i made with her.

The problem is now, i think we are straying apart..... a bit far too apart...... I don't know if its me whos is too sensitive or what. You see, ever since school started, the only time she will ever call me is when she needs help with her school work, needs me to comfort her when her brother is angry or mad at her. Its not like like i mind doing this for her, its just that thats all she calls me for.

Also when i make time for her and ask her out for a meeting, she totally forgot that she was supposed to meet me. I have to remind her, then she remembered it. Now whenever i call her, she always responds in a half-hearted way. She dosen't make much topic, ask her stuff she is always not focused, mainly she is not even listening. And she will always cut the phone call by saying she wants to do this or that.

I tried talking to her once about this problem between us, she agreed to try and make an effort to change the way the things are between us. But i do not see her effort or even feel her effort. It makes me feel that i am only something of use to her, after using it stored in some place then will be taken out to be used again.....

Idon't know what to feel now. Is it me who is too sensitive or am i not doing enough?

Now i feel like i am desprately clinging on the last few strands of our friendship.........